Having a what would seem rather normal day! Yesterday seemed like it was a full moon in my house! Someone came by to visit and what started as a simple conversation soon turned into a heated debate. It was weird to say the least! I wasn't the one upset by the conversation it was the other person. Those who know me, know I am a very patient and laid back person. It would take quite a bit to make me mad or upset! Of course I vent every now and again, but who doesn't! I am learning that not all people who I am acquainted are thrilled by my weight loss. In fact, they see it as a threat to them. How could that be? I have no earthly idea! I am not superwoman or anything spectacular! I am just meager ole' me! So why anyone would see me or my weight loss a threat is beyond me. I am going in a direction which is clearly marked in sand! If you love me and respect me for who I am as a person then be happy for me! I am in this for health and longevity of life. Not to make myself look sexier or try to compete with anyone for a man. Honey if you only knew I am so over it! After my ex I'd rather just be BY MYSELF! My son is all the company I'll need for a long time to come! Yes I have gentlemen friends as well as lady friends but people they are just that friends! I don't have to answer to no one except GOD! I like this way. So why people would see me as a threat, I have no clue.
Getting past this incident, the night turned out to be rather nice and I went to bed early! Woke up like a new me! I went to a doctor today and was thrilled to see him take me off a medication. Yes people 1 gone and many more to go! My blood count still isn't where it needs to be and now my lymph nodes are acting up, but I am still blessed! I remember a time (not so long ago) when I could barely move around in my house. Not being very mobile brings a whole mess of problems with it! I was finding that even basic necessities were becoming a chore. I am glad and proud I can say that is no longer the case! I walked yesterday afternoon for 1hr! Yes people! "1hr" to me this is an accomplishment in it's self! I remember that it took me about 3 weeks just to tolerate only a 5minute walk. So I am proud of myself even if other are not! I am about to start a water aerobic class this coming week and am very excited to go.
On Monday I have a weigh in! I am looking forward to that too. I started the tip from the biggest loser about changing my food around. I am still keeping a journal and counting calories. So I haven't changed that. I have only changed the kinds of breakfast, lunch and dinners I have. One morning I have a protein shake and fruit,a normal lunch and dinner. The next day I have bran cereal or fiber cereal w/skim milk and a protein shake and fruit, with a normal dinner. The next day normal breakfast and lunch and a protein shake for dinner. I have protein shakes because I don't like them and I am trying to get adjusted to tasting them for prep for my surgery. That is why I incorporate them into my diet. So we will see if this tip paid off or not. I know I have lost more weight because I tried on a pair of jeans I had that didn't fit and now they do. I am just anxious to see how much! I would mind even if it were one pound! I am just happy to the little simple things I can do without help now! Things other people take for granted! They were hard task for me. Now they are becoming easier and easier! Like I told my psych doctor, "I refuse to be that 481lb lady I was in November and December! I will NOT GO BACK TO BEING THAT PERSON EVER!!!!"